This is a portion of a message Joshua sent to a friends brother. Both Joshua and Taylor battled addictions and were great friends from high school. Joshua always attempted to contact Taylor or his family to check on him. He loved Taylor and prayed often for him.
Josh Davis- 10-9-2012
"I wish I could explain your brother's irrational behavior to you Russell. We share a bond, him and I. A taint on our souls that will not wash clean; this taint I have scrubbed at until my fingers bled and my tears dried up. It is as if the devil himself marked us at birth for forlorn melancholy and despondent despair.
It is not fair that you should be made to suffer, that your Mother should be made to suffer. I saw the haunted dejection in your Mother's face every time my own Mother peered into my blood shot eyes. I have learned to count my age not by the days I have lived, but by the bouts of sobriety I earn. I do not understand the person I was two years ago, but I force myself to know him. To know him truly is to destroy him utterly. But know this Russell, it is never to late, verily, for we lost souls.
Taylor was one of the best friends I ever had the pleasure of knowing. Condemn his actions Russell and forsake his foolish endeavors, but find a hidden place in your heart to hide your hope. Hide it so that you may never lose it. Neither he nor I deserved the benevolent families God gave us. But such is life, both unmistakeably cruel and superlatively sweet. "
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